i know this sounds spoiled and materialistic, but i miss the time when my family actually asked me what i wanted for christmas and maybe spent a bit on my gifts. 
on the other hand i’m not complaining , got lots of cute stuff from my boyfriend and his family, they’re so lovely.  
hope you all had a nice christmas everyone<3 xo 

hate my body hate my body hate my body 
and i hate that im whining about it 

everything i want to say just comes out wrong, i feel stupid and confused and i just wanna lie down and cry 

i feel so strange
i’m suddenly starting to see beauty and enjoyment in everything
it’s like i’m stoned all the time 

really really need to get my hands inked soon  

have been feeling so SHIT lately. like i just want to take a break from life and live in my bed

only 3 days til i’m 18, been waiting foreveeer.